I believe it is important for me to know what I want. Yet, I never really know what I want, so I am constantly in conflict with my belief and my reality. I believe this is the core of my artistic self. This conflict keeps me exploring and de-constructing and reconstructing my surroundings. It’s not obsessive compulsive, it’s just when the muses call me. I am a perpetual set designer in my home. I repaint walls in different colors or patterns and redo displays of my stuff thinking that the new setting will reveal the answer to what it is I want. There is another part of me that knows I’ve created a lifestyle out of this belief, this search for what I want. I’ve created an art form for myself and in good moments, I sit back and feel quite content knowing that I was right in my belief.
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