This I Believe

Lindsay - cincinnati, Ohio
Entered on November 2, 2006

Live Everyday Like it’s Your Last

I see a look of fear when my father talks about his cancer and this makes me sad. I wish for the best for him but I cannot guarantee it and this scares me. I believe everyday should be lived as if there won’t be anymore left. My father lives this way in truth because he doesn’t know if it is his last day or not. I fear that one day it just may be his last and I wont be able to really know what my father knows.

Since we have found out that he has cancer I have lived my life more cautiously, constantly looking over my shoulder for any dangers that could harm the rest of my family or myself. I try and accomplish what I can when I can. My father tries to do everything he has set out to do incase something happens to him. I am very worried about him because his cancer has come back twice now and it could possibly spread and cause permanent damage. I have to live in this way because anything can happen at anytime.

If I live life to the fullest I will then feel I have accomplished what I have to in order to complete my life. My life could be taken at any moment and I have to be prepared for it. Prior to my dad learning about his cancer I didn’t understand what living life to the fullest meant, but since then it has been a big part of my life and I try to incorporate it into everything I do. I now understand that when you do something you should do it to the best of your ability because you may not have another chance at it.

For my dad it was riding his motorcycle because his cancer prevented him from riding and enjoying it. I have not experienced anything that has prevented me from doing the thing I love the most and for this I am grateful. I hope that one day I will be able to understand this belief even more because it is still not clear to me but I understand it enough to use it in my life. Living life to the fullest makes what I do seem more important than before I understood it.

From my dad’s experience I have learned a great deal about myself and I feel very close to him. I do not take my dad for granted anymore. I enjoy being with him, laughing and talking. I try to appreciate my whole family and all my friends because the most important things in life are the people you have. I understand the belief that everything happens for a reason and it ties into the belief of living everyday to the fullest because whatever happens to you whether bad or good has to have a reason behind it. My dad’s cancer happened for a reason and he believes it was meant for him to educate other people about colorectal cancer and that you can be a survivor. My dad has a very positive attitude even through this rough experience. He is an example of both of my beliefs. I stand strongly behind these beliefs and will live up to them faithfully.