This I Believe

JEFF - SIERRA MADRE, California
Entered on October 14, 2006
Age Group: 50 - 65

FINDING GOD

I HAD A DIFFICULT CHILDREN. I WAS SURROUNDED BY UNHAPPY ANGRY STRESSED OUT PARENTS WHO WERE SO BUSY WITH THEIR MISERY THAT THERE WAS LITLE TIME FOR ME.

AT SIX I WAS ALREADY RUNNING AWAY FROM HOME TO GET SOME ATTENTION. SO I GROW UP EXPTREMELY DEPRESSED WITH VERY LOW SELF ESTEEM.EVEN IN COLLEGE I WAS ISOLATED & LONELY.

I TOOK A RELIGIOUS COURSE FROM A GREAT TEACHER AT SAN DIEGO STATE AND WAS READING THE BHAGAVAD GITA,THE HINDU BIBLE, IN A COMFORTABLE LARGE ROOM IN THE CAMPUS LOUNGE.

THE BOOK STATED THAT I WAS PART OF GOD AND THAT ALL THINGS WERE PART OF GOD.

WELL IT HIT ME HARD AND I HAD A RELIGIOUS EXPERIENCE. I FELT THAT THE POWER THAT MOVED THE SUN AND STARS, THAT GREW FLOWERS ,THAT CREATED ALL THINGS WAS ALSO ME. I LOST ALL FEAR, ALL ISOLATION,ALL LONELINESS.

I WAS FILLED WITH LOVE AND ABIDING SELF ESTEEM.THIS STRONG SENSE LASTED FOR A WEEK. BUT I REALIZED THAT EVEN IF I DIDN’T FEEL ITS INTESITY IT WAS STILL TRUE. THAT ALL LIFE, EVRYTHING IS GOD, EVERYTHING IS A WORK OF ART,A CREATION OF THE DIVINE.

I AM NOT SO LONELY ANYMORE AND CAN STILL FEEL THIS ABIDING SENSE OF BROTHERHOOD TO EVERYTHING. STILL AT TIMES IT IS SO EASY FOR ME TO GET LOST IN MY ORDINARY DAILY LIFE BUT STILL THE MAGIC LIGHT SHINES THROUGH ANEW HERE AND THERE TO REMIND ME AGAIN OF THE MOON AND THE STARS!

THANK YOU TO THAT TEACHER AND HIS SHARING WITH US THE WISDOM OF THOSE WHO HAVE COME BEFORE!!