I believe in constellations, in the man that can spin 20 basketballs at once even when it seems it couldn’t be so. I was born with Cerebral Palsy and was supposed to be crippled for life and was never supposed to walk. With experimental surgery this was proven untrue (I was the first to have my foot rebuilt from within and would have been in medical journals and the news but my parents didn’t want the publicity to scar their baby….said I might be an astronaut someday…). I was expected to be a brave struggling child with all the surgeries , blood tests ,leg braces and a one week stay in a chemo ward at Stanford hospital for tests in first grades where they ran out of beds. This also was proven untrue. I was a goofy, curious and creative kid that was unaware of any struggle, any ride against the rapids; It was just the way things were. I knew nothing else. No one does, but when it came time to choose a career, a path, an adult identity for life, I chose constellations and it was different. It was difficult. This was simply not how things go I was told “This is not normal”. It was against the stream, but I had been a happy child for one simple reason that I never told anyone. I never thought I needed to. I was many people at once. Somehow amongst the cat scans, spinal taps, birthday parties and bowls of cereal in front of the tv I understood this—I knew nothing else. I was son, brother, friend, patient, grandson, birthday boy. This crowd was in my skin and I knew nothing else. I never succumbed to the teasing at school or the chorus of “do one thing”. I am now a successful new media/locative media artist/writer, musician, theorist , professor, fiancée ,brother and son and above all happy. I believe in constellations: in the sum of identity and in pursuits of happiness in this life. I know nothing else.
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