Why does family hurt you? Why do they change in a matter of seconds? It‚s
almost as if you see another side of them that you‚ve never imagined you
would have to see. Every memory you had and the time that you‚ve spent with
that person seem to fade away. They are just a thing in the past and we
can‚t change the past. It‚s over. He‚s out of my life just like that. I
blink and he‚s not only gone but changed. It hurts to know that family can
do that. How can someone hurt their own children this way? How can you act
in such a manner that leaves your children wondering, „Who is this person?‰
„This isn‚t my dad.‰ Why does one little argument turn into a year and a
half of silence, sadness, anger and questioning? It sucks. It‚s not fare
and it hurts. You don‚t know how to feel or act. You become frustrated and
wish thing were back to the way they were. I feel sad then pissed off. I
can‚t hold on to one emotion because I feel another one coming on. I believe
that your family can damage a piece of your heart. This came to fast and I
wasn‚t ready for it. Not only wasn‚t I ready for it but I didn‚t expect it.
All I can think about is why he did this. Why, Why, Why. How can you love
your kids so much for pretty much their whole lives and one moment do
something that changes all that? What kind of parent is that? Why would he
do this to his own kids? I can‚t say that family is everything because
after this whole experience, I‚ve learned that that‚s not true. It‚s
upsetting to feel this way but its how I feel know after all of this.
People are always saying that your family is so important to you and they
will always be there to help you out and support you, but know I don‚t know
anymore. I don‚t know how to feel. This is what I believe.
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