I am a 50 year old woman who has lead a shameful life. I was abused by my father, virtually ignored by my mother. That is another story. I became a Mom at 23. My daughter Elizabeth and I have not been all that close. We are very different. I also believe that she has been impacted by my shutting down (which I had to do in order to survive the flashbacks from the abuse). She gave birth on 3/19/05 to my Grandson Jaden Aaron. I do not believe I have ever felt such joy. At times I feel I do not deserve to have him…..but I do, I am this young man’s Grandmother. I plan on loving him and giving him all that I can. Not material things….I will rock him, read to him, play patty-cake with him and love him.
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